My personal advice..

if you want to stay healthy, don't get a disease that involves tons of waiting. Becuase nothing in your real life will ever get done.

That's basically the story today. Why don't you suffer for a few more days and then we'll see what we can do? oh really? Really asshole?

This is really frustrating. They said it was a treatable disease. They said it I could live a normal life with it. I've been fucking lied to.

It has been become increasingly clear that medical doctors, with emphasis on specialists, are overpaid, stuff-shirted, nobody's. Why? Because it is also strikingly clear that they don't know what to do with me. They ignore my phonecalls, ignore my plea's for help when I do see them, telling me to wait until monday, wait until friday... If I have one more doctor tell me to wait ...

This disease, me, is not being managed. I'm beign shuffled around. And no one knows what to do for me. Meanwhile, I have no idea how I'm going to finish school, or go on stage like this...

*curling up in a ball and crying desperatly and hopelessly without help today*

I'm starting to resent healthy people. They have it easy. It's not fair. I want a normal shot at life.